Well I hate to say it, but Jerome and I have split up. (We actually split on January 1.)
Let me say this. I do still love him, but we both have issues that definitely need work. I did not, out of fairness, want to continue in a relationship whereas I would continue to look over my shoulder and wait for the next "fuck up".
The end came when a series of incidents happened over a period of time whereas some things were said that shouldn't have been said, tempers flared and a harsh realization within me happened. I came to the realization that, again, out of fairness I had to let him go.
I still want to be friends with him; it'll just take some time for everything to settle, to "heal" if you will. The only thing that I have a problem with right now is that he wants to hang out right away. For example, I received a voicemail from him this evening asking for both of us to go to church together on the next Sunday that I will not have to usher. Whereas I am attempting to be his friend, I think it is too soon to "hang out" or go places together.
Am I making sense?
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